- How many times have you thought of throwing in the towel. How do you work through that? Are you getting better at working through it?
I probably shouldn’t admit to this but I’ve become really good at throwing tantrums. Hiking day in day out is a battle. You’re continuously concerned about the route, if your bearings are correct, if you have enough food and water, if the next river is flowing, what the weather is going to do, if your card will work in the next town?! And then something small happens, like I spill some coffee grinds in my tent which I have nearly run out of, can’t shake out in the winds and are getting wet from the condensation and are smearing over everything…. Or I can’t find something in the dark because I didn’t put it back where it belongs. These moments can be so frustrating that “I quit”… For a few minutes. They’re silly things but they kill me and these are the kind of mental battles you enter into with long streaks of solitude. I have only ever considered quitting seriously once when all my big ticket items broke and I became so sick I could barely walk.
I met a woman who oozed love and serenity and somehow convinced me to take a day off and spend time drinking hot chocolates and doing nothing. The subsequent day may have been the one that resulted in the public humiliation (see Lucy’s second blog post) but that’s not the point. Rest and time spent with good people set me back on track and it was a good reminder of how important it is to allow time to enjoy where I am.